I’ve been on this search of who I am and what I’ve been created for, asking myself, what is my purpose? I’m beginning to think and believe that the only place I can really find the answers to these questions—and really where I can find my true self–is by seeking the Lord. As I grow deeper in my understanding and knowledge of who God is, I become more awake to my own desires and I become more confident in who I am as an eternal being created by God for God. I’m able to rest in knowing that He provides for each step of the way as I draw nearer to Him. As I make myself available–create time in solitude and silence for Him to speak into my life–He guides me through His infinite wisdom and speaks to me in ways only He can speak to me–in ways I can hear him.
In a world that has gotten so good at squeezing out solitude and silence by busyness–I believe this nomadic lifestyle has taken me out of the normal practices of the world and dropped me in a place where I’m constantly surrounded by solitude and silence–so there’s nowhere to turn but to God. It’s been a lonely journey–healing, wonderful, but oh so lonely. I have been taught that I need the Lord’s grace to wash over me through solitude and silence. It’s where I feel the Lord’s peace and presence–it’s where the Lord’s incredible healing powers wash over me.
Through this practicing of solitude and silence, I’ve been able to work through some incredibly painful life experiences that wouldn’t have otherwise happened in the hectic day-to-day-ness of our modern day life. I’ve been able to discover some of my deepest motives, fears, and sorrows, and I have found the courage to say them out loud. I’ve learned that while things stay in the dark, they will never have the chance to heal. The light has an incredible ability to heal! When you’ve found a safe place, where things can be spoken of that have been held back in shame, those things will heal. There is an incredible healing power in confession!
On the other side of confession–one needs to learn the discipline of listening. When one becomes that safe place for someone to share their heart and know they won’t be reprimanded, “fixed”, given tools to change, looked down upon, or gossiped about, they become a beautiful tool in another’s healing journey.